"Your birthday is just round the corner," my younger brother said to me the other day. My birthday? "Still more than a month away la!" I replied. I know it is already July, but I guess I forgot August comes after July. Heck, I almost forgot what a birthday is!
Been busy ever since the end of my internship. Traveled to Seoul, got a job, thought about university, quit the job, applied for universities, etc. Everyday was a busy day..... mentally. What's the right thing to do? Should I do this first? What do I truly want? What should I do?
So many people out there knew what they wanted ever since they were a child. So many of them are successful at such young ages. Jiyong aspired to be a rapper since he was 8; Ena Matsumoto, a successful producer of EMODA at age 27; the entrepreneurs from Love, Bonito; and my dad, who started his own business when he was 22. Me?
It's okay to be (almost) 20 and still confused, right? I dabbled in areas of my interests - am a co-owner of online boutique (FIASCO), worked as a Veterinary Nurse, studied psychology during my course of study. Yet I still don't know what I want to do. FIASCO is practically dead, I quit my job at the animal clinic, and am thinking of pursuing psychology in uni but I don't know where it's going to bring me in the future. Psychologist? Counsellor? I just can't see myself working a 8-5 job. I envy those who are already pursuing their dreams. Those who know exactly what they want, and are working for it.
I feel like I am trapped in a room with several doors, and am made to choose one to exit. Don't know what's behind those doors, and no turning back after choosing one.
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