Ever since I started internship, I have been on a mind battle with myself (almost) every morning. It's not that I dislike, or even hate working, but I am so used to the freedom school gives me. I abuse this freedom, a lot. I skip school like free - as and when I like it. The worst I will get is an attendance warning email, or poor results. But work? Yeah, I can skip work like free, but it isn't exactly free, is it? What comes with your absence at work, is the absence of money too (Unpaid leave for interns, yeah), which sucks. I'm not money-minded. I need the money; for not just materialistic wants, but more personal reasons.
But anyway, coming back to the topic of the mind battle with myself in the mornings. It's a brain and heart battle, where my heart tells me it is okay to skip work, and the brain tells me it is irresponsible and stuff like that. I go through this motion everyday, and my brain finally gave in to my heart this morning. Was feeling like utter shit since yesterday noon and I thought I would feel better today since I took some medicine before I slept. Obviously not, and after a good 10 minutes battle, my brain surrendered.
Not only am I going to earn less this month, I am also going to have lesser money than I already have because I need to head to the clinic to get MC. Brilliant. But I am really feeling kinda sick so oh well.....
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