I just got back from Europe a few days ago, and am planning on rotting away what's left of my semester break. I'm not sure if I wanna blog about my trip because I can hardly remember the places I visited, and I don't have that many photos taken. Maybe just a post to summarise my trip. Come to think about it, I haven't completed my Seoul (Jan 2013) travelogue either.
While I was very much accustomed to school by the time my semester break started (about two weeks ago), I am back to the dark hole of dreading school again. School is just too out of my comfort zone that I just wanna keep away from it. The anxiety I experience just by thinking of it, keeps me up at night, with racing heartbeat and difficulty in breathing. I know it probably isn't that bad as to categorise it under an anxiety disorder, but it is honestly quite tiring to coax myself to sleep on such nights. There are a lot of things I can dissociate myself with; I can tell myself to look/think about it and feel numb, but not this one.
School talk aside, there are a whole bunch of things on my mind recently. I am struggling to live, struggling to feel alive. But of course, this is just another period of me being me, and I shall be fine soon.
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